A friend will be there for you when things are good...
but a TRUE friend will be there for you
when things are good and also when things are very bad...
and just when it feels like you will never smile again...
she can put a smile on your face with just with a hug!


I've not posted in such a long time, i don't really have the inspiration to blog about anything, anymore. I'm only updating via Facebook. Well, guess it won't hurt to update once in awhile. ^^ Life is like a big joke, everyone's laughing but idk what the joke is about. Problems either come one after another or they just come all at the same time. How i wish there's a single day i can just shut off my mind and not think about anything complicated. It's so tiring to live through the days like that. I'm grateful that i have such great friends to stand by me when i feel like just letting everything go. You guys ROCK MY WORLD. :D


This is meant for you:
Although we're not the way we used to be. Even though we don't talk as often as we did; we've seemed to have stopped talking altogether. Just remember i'm always here to lend a listening ear, just a listening ear and probably some good advice, nothing more. Don't turn your back on the people that are always around for the sake of one small moment. That's not the girl that i used to know. We're already like unknowns, don't let us become total strangers. I really don't wish to see a day when you turn around and find nobody standing behind waiting to catch you fall.


Open your eyes and really see.

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.


I've been watching this taiwan drama, 饭团之家, recently. It's about this family and how they lead their lives, it has all the problems of the average family and some parts are seriously touching. Darn, and i feel a connection. I can't help but wish my family was like that, so warm and caring. Maybe because it's due to the relationship between their family members, certain parts of the show are really saddening, sometimes even tearful. I felt the most touching part was after 美香 found out 永德 had cancer, and 永德 apologized to 美香 because he felt that due to his sickness she'll have a lot of trouble. She said some words where i felt is really meaningful, although people would not like to accept it, it's a true fact.


This was what she told him:
我嫁给你我很快乐，我穷也快乐，我苦也快乐,
我跟你吵架都很快乐，我通通都快乐。
真正的快乐不是过好日子，或者是每天嘻皮笑脸很开心，笑到脸斗抽筋。
真正的快乐是藏在辛苦里面，没有辛苦哪来的快乐。


Without any hardships, you won't be able to appreciate the joys and the laughter, because there won't be any to begin with. Watching this drama changed my thinking at some point, i would like to take a step back and enjoy the moment again, like how i used to. Because i don't want to miss a single moment of it, not even the bad ones. :)

If I should die tonight and the reason remains unknown,

tell not the whole world, but the one I love that I died of a broken heart,

not because he loved me too little but because I loved him too much.

Love the quote. :)

Sometimes, things happen and they're totally beyond your control. Perhaps it was the choices you made, or the things that you did, maybe you could have walked another path, or choose another route. Life is not a game that you can save and restart if it f*cked up, you chose the route to take. We should always choose wisely and think before we make any decisions, because someone tends to f*ck you up the ass when you've turned around and not notice. That's what life is about, deal with it.

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme,
and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change,
taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
Delicious Ambiguity.

We sent Huimin on her final journey this afternoon. Looking at her face for the last time, i couldn't bring myself to turn away, i just wished i could stand there and watch forever. I couldn't help but silently telling her how wrong her death was, it should not have happened, she should not have gone so young. Especially not for someone like that, he doesn't deserve the amount of love that you gave him, even after death.

Not a single tear came to my eyes during the whole session. It's not because i was not sad, but my heart was filled with cold hate, so much so that my fists were clenched throughout the entire time. After the the body was cremated at Mandai, i was riding pillion on Brandon's bike, that's when the tears started to roll down. Honestly, i just wish to know that she's at peace right now, i'll be so much happier. Just thinking about the events today makes tears well up again.

All the sad faces i saw there, do you know how many broken hearts you left behind? Any idea how much pain it has brought on everyone? It was so not worth it. Please, EVERYONE: Before you want to do something like this, give me a call or send me a text first. Death need not be your last resort, i don't want to attend something like that ever again. :'(


YOU'RE MISSED.

The bitterest tears shed over graves are
for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.

Rest In Peace, Huimin.

Some things are just too sudden to accept, and many people will never be able to accept a situation where death is involved. However, i've learnt that this is Life, you live to die. Death will come into our life at some point of time, there is no running away, there is no hiding from it. It is my belief that such things are fated to happen, if you avoid it, it will just turn around and come back to you. That's life and death. I feel everything is predestined. However, this.. This is too much, it was not worth it, not at all. You're so silly. You never deserve such treatment.

Imy. :'(

I attended a funeral of a friend for the first time today. I've attended many funerals, whether relative or stranger, close or distant. This is just different altogether, i never want to experience such a feeling again. Not once did i ever thought the bubbly you, the always smiling you would have done something like this. Life is really so fragile, why does it have to be like this? Dearest Huimin, you will always remain in our hearts, never to be forgotten, and loved forever. Do rest in peace.

Gone too soon.

Hihi, i've just updated and re-did the whole blog, this looks so much livelier than the previous one, it was looking so plain and dead. Thanks to Nana for her help on the skin. I'm still having some trouble it, but will try to solve everything soon for BEST viewing purposes. :)

Heelloooo. I'm back to give a short update, i'll try to update soon, but the sight of my blog disgusts me. I'm going to find the time to redo the entire blogskin soon, just doesn't fit the mood i'm in now. I've been so busy lately with nearly nothing to update about, so i've only been active on facebook. It's the usual cycle of work and sleep, it's killing me slowly. Plus my shoulder is hurting really bad, doesn't seem to be getting any better than it already is. It hurts to be just lying on the injured side, and it's already been how long, over a month? FML.